“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
~ Philippians 4:6-7 ~
I was recently down for three weeks with COVID-19. I could have spiralled into a “Why me? Why now?” victim mentality and it would have felt legitimate/valid. I was planning on launching the Builders membership this month, a big next step in my business. I had plans that had to be put on hold for a bit.
I was originally going to launch the membership to begin in July but decided to wait because I didn’t want to rush it out there. I had told a couple of people about it but I hadn’t sent it to my list. I thought about it for a couple of days and made the decision to launch it at the end of July to begin in August. Then I got sick.
We were planning a trip to my parents’ cabin in the mountains to be with family and friends, especially my mom and dad. I had developed a “probably nothing” cough before heading up, but just to be safe, I decided to get tested for COVID. The last thing I wanted to do was take this crazy, russian roulette virus to my parents. Test came back negative! Woohoo! Good to go! We had a fire blazing on the mountain surrounding our city and I figured that was the cause of my cough.
Sequence of Events
July 1: I test negative for COVID-19
July 2: I leave to go to the cabin/mountains
July 3: I wake up with my hips hurting and thinking “Is this bed really this uncomfortable?” I’d put a foam topper on it the last time we were up at the cabin. It should be okay.
July 3 midday: I start running a low grade fever. 101ish. I don’t have a thermometer so I take my temp with a meat thermometer wrapped in a ziplock. My aunt joked that I was “done.”
July 3-5: I continue to run a fever. Stay away from people but they are still in the same house.
July 3-11: After the 5th I don’t have a fever anymore but continue to have symptoms.
My legs and hips hurt (like really hurt), the amount of pressure in my head was crazy. Although I feel slightly short of breath, I am still able to breathe. It’s really the pressure in my head that bothered me the most. I am brushing my teeth one morning and I can feel the pain radiating from my teeth to the top of my head. I think, maybe I have a sinus infection.
Then I lose all sense of smell. One evening my husband makes ribs. Everyone is saying how good they smell and “I can smell them from here” I take a deep breath in through my nose—nope, I can’t smell them or the pine trees or anything! I am so surprised when on the 10th it rains and I can finally but barely smell the rain! I am so happy!
July 11th: I leave to go home. I mean, I can sit on the couch at the cabin as easy as I can sit on the couch at home. No need to ruin vacation for the rest of my family.
July 13th: The first weekday back at home, I go back and get another test. It comes back positive this time. I call my parents to let them know and let everyone else know that I had seen (I did stay away from people but they had been around me a little). After I get home, I am also able to order a thermometer and a pulse oximeter. My O2 levels stay around 90%—low is anything below 95% for someone without COPD or similar lung conditions but I never run a fever again. I still have the pressure in my head and a cough but all other symptoms seem to be gone.
July 16th: First day symptom free. This is the first day I even do a little work on my computer. I work a little on Friday as well. Saturday, July 18th I hit a wall. I still felt well in all ways except my energy level. I take 3 or 4 naps that day. I now am still working on managing my energy but I am definitely on the back side of it all.
I am deeply grateful that I decided to put off launching Builders. It would have not been good to launch and then fall off the map for 3 weeks. I can also be flexible enough in my business that I am choosing to delay the launch one more month. Why? Because I need to spend some time managing my energy. I will not be good to anyone else if I am not taking care of myself first. It is important to remember that sticking to a timeline is not the most important thing, but being kind to ourselves and doing what makes sense with the way reality has played out. Even though we can’t predict what will happen or control all the outcomes, we can respond in such a way that protects our wellbeing, both in mind and body. We can be grateful for margin and space, and use both as we need to, instead of feeling like a slave to time or other people's expectations. And that is such a gift.